I’ve got nothing. I’ve hit the brick wall of blogging hell this morning and realized I have no avenue left to turn down, except perhaps, to address something I’ve been conveniently ignoring online for 5 years. My personal life~

Recent Comment made by the always so fabulous Marc (k) : “I’m starting to think you’re in the Witness Protection Program and that’s why you’ve been so careful about opening up.” Now, so Marc (k) doesn’t have to take the whole rap for nudging me, there may be one more person who, in her softest tones, has hinted at me as well to get with the program. I shall not mention (M) names here.

So here’s the truth. I’ve been a ward of the state via the witness protection program and although they allow me computer, I’m under strict guidelines to reveal nothing. There ya have it, the reason for 5 years of writing without revealing much of anything. Cool huh.

No? Ok, then how about this. When I started my journal it was meant to be an extension outside of the world I lived in day to day. To go personal is to include my day to day workings, the things I’d like to take a break from if I’m to be honest here. For example, I am a Mother, 24-7, day in day out, but Motherhood does not define (consume) me. I like being a Mom, love it, however, I don’t breath, eat, sleep it. This little space was a way to step away and indulge the other pieces of myself. I’ve made a few selective exceptions over the years, but on the whole, I’ve tried to leave my two daughters out of the program until a bit more recently. I imagine I’ll be mentioning them more as I attempt to round out my writing experience. But, I doubt anyone will ever call me a Mommy Blogger. I could have gone down that blogging platform, easily, but on a personal level, I wanted a seperation from state of being. See?

On relationships. With A Man, or a Woman I suppose some could have wondered, since I’ve never addressed this~Ever~ Not once in 5 years ~ Hows that for tenacity!~Fierce~ Some have noticed this blaring omission and kindly asked from time to time…do I have them, one, several, none? Is there someone special in my life? Someone asked me if I was a nun awhile back. That one made me smile.

The Husband ~ Robert

So, here’s the deal. Yes. Not to the nun part. But yes. I have relationship. In fact, I have relationship that crossed the point of no return just last year and I got married in 2008. Told ya, tenacity baby, news like that didn’t even weasel itself into my pages online. Surprise….I’m a wife! ( I know, I’m stil trying to get over the shock of it)

Let me explain something here. No one in my 3-D world,  knew about my online blog until this last March. Family. Friends. Kids. The Husband knew I wrote on the Internet, but he didn’t know the address. I promised him a long time ago I wouldn’t write about him~ us~ and if and when I did, I would show him the way. So, until March, No One Was Invited. There was a Do Not Disturb sign on my blog doors to the people I had to look square in the eye. So based on my equally fierce motto of not talking about people unless they get full disclosure first, I simply left him and our relationship out.

Robert has this address now. He has visited the lighthouse O’Rebecca. Thy Husband has given me his blessing to write about him ~ us ~ if I so choose (he must have hit his head, woohoo open season) So, that’s the why, in the why I haven’t gone personal all this time. Up next, anything I damn well feel like because my cat is completely out of the bag. Anonymous is last season and I’m embarking on a new frontier these days.